Moon River

No more pinball machine. I am now feeling like one of the Slowskis in the Comcast commercial. I've been trying to think of a painting that expresses my mood, and this painting by Pat Steir is about as close as I can get. Pat Steir's work is well worth an entry or two by itself, but I haven't got the energy right now to draft something intelligent. Suffice it to say that she has been through several distinct phases--each marked by very different subjects and approaches--but her "signature style" seems to be this, protrayal of water in a method based on Chinese painting. It's the letting go and falling away that I love. And this one is titled Moon River--which also happens to be the name of a Henry Mancini/Johnny Mercer song from the movie Breakfast at Tiffany's, starring Audrey Hepburn. Not sure of the relationship in Steir's mind, but here are Mercer's lyrics:

Moon River, wider than a mile

I'm crossing you in style one day

Oh dream maker, you heart breaker

Wherever you're going, I'm going your way

Two drifters, off to see the world

There's such a lot of world to see

We're after the same rainbow's end

Waitin' round the bend

My huckleberry friend

Moon River and me

pinball psyche

This is what my brain looks like on rest and relaxation---->

Synapses firing simultaneously; everything is being rewired all at once. It's like I'm suddenly left-handed (please take no offense lefties--it's about the idea of rewiring).

Had dinner with my friend Jessica on Friday night, and it was great to see her. But it was so hard to follow the topics--I was bouncing from one thing to the next--every idea is like a pinball machine flipper and I am just a ball bouncing around inside my own brain, trying to land somewhere.

This morning I set out to deal with this issue and I have to admit it was funny. "Just 20 minutes of meditation," I told myself. Started in a half lotus with a candle that had clear aspirations of becoming a tiki torch. Blew it out and then sat in the dark. Shoulders began to hurt, so I tried child's pose and then corpse pose. Suddenly I found myself thinking about buying a laptop this afternoon. Next thing you know; I'm at the computer.

But...at least I'm back! =D